Even when she lived, when I walked alone
in the autumn woods
the depth was missing
It should not have been
Sun shone through the russet leaves
Shadows stippled the forest floor
Tree trunks stretched away up a slope
giving depth and beauty
Or should have done
But alone in the woods, I was so alone
as though all the world’s people
had taken ship for a paradise
And left me behind
Only when I walked in the woods
with you, my husband
were they beautiful
Then, ah, then did the solitude
hang golden and pregnant with it
welcoming us in
As though divinity resounded in the silence
brightening the crimsons, deepening the contrasts
bringing paradise into being on the echo
We were two lovers in the world’s first garden
Even now your presence might give
me comfort in the woods
but I cannot reach them
My grief parts me from places
of restoration and rebirth
In memory of my mother:
No Beauty
Despair
Cold Rage
Bright Radiance
Beauty in the Close
Grievous Loss